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What if it is true the prayers and sacrifice of this Yom Kippur season will decide who will be rich or poor or even more disconcerting who will actually live and die? If the world in someway is tied to how we close out this year could nothing be more frightening? Who am I and thy people to be worthy in anyway of such a role. We are humble servants who often lack the will and/or true understanding on how best to serve.  G-D please accept our heartfelt prayers and sacrifice on behalf of all our brothers and sisters from any tribe to make this year one full of happiness, success, health and love. Whatever role it might truly have in your grand plan.

At every performance I was looking for who had not attended instead of the hand that was always there. You were the one who stood by me day in and day out through any conditions that fell thy way.  Yet I was so busy looking for more that I forgot to see the true supporter in the crowd or empty seats and now it’s too late. For, now you watch performance in the heavens above and suddenly I hear the applause that I won’t hear anymore.

Because I came in when nobody else showed.

Because I came earlier and stayed later than most

Because I put up with your complaints and disdain.

Because I didn’t say it was someone else’s job but did it myself.

Because I cared when others walked away.

Because my attitude outside was nothing like the one I felt inside.

I’ve earned it and that extra piece of Cheescake taste just right.

I’m trying but after expecting a tree all I see is a splinter.  Can I focus all my energies on this bit when the world appeared to be at my grasp just a moment before only to slip away, again? I guess for those that did show especially in these conditions I should be grateful but that means quarantining the other feelings that are bursting at my seems.  Everyone has their reasons I just wish I didn’t have to feel the effects thereof. Sometimes it makes me just want to quit but then I notice the paint brush is still wet. G-D willing someday it will be a tree but for now the splinter looks fine…I guess.

What one fears depends on when and how that person believes the story will end. If one believes that their story is written by others like them then fear is always at the door? Will he/she accept me for what I have/am?  While others fear resides in a deeper purpose than this time or place looking to a pursuit many can’t see or perceive. Am I living within the realm the almighty has designed for me and how/when is my final judgement going to be decided?  As Yom Kippur is about to begin those that with this fear will look not only to turn another page in their books but in the books of others that don’t even know the true author.  May G-D bless us all that this fear motivate us all for our higher purpose and allow our books to be continued to be opened in the upcoming year.

“Marlbon..” finally a healthy cigarette. Well, maybe it’s not one you actually smoke but it does stay in one’s mouth.  Unlike the other brands “Marlbor… will actually have the vitamins and nutrition one needs and will actually make your teeth white instead of yellow. Marlbon has the look and feel of the real stuff  but without the harmful ingredients which will have your tag wagging. Marlbon… Oh did we the “e”

I thought at least this part of my existence would end but taxes are eternal. Yes, you pay them to a higher authority but still have to give your share. You work your wings off up here and still it’s barely enough to enjoy the perks. Yet it could be a whole lot hotter so I’m not complaining just stating the facts.  Taxes are not based on anyone’s income but are what one did in their past lives and that can be a real burden. So, trust me try a bit harder or you’ll pay. For heaven isn’t as heavenly as one might think especially when you tax bill is sky higher.

When things go wrong don’t just look at the mirror but stare into it! For, the only thing you’ll be able to change is your reaction to the event. It’s not you should look for the blame entirely within a matter of fact it might be the one thing that isn’t a culprit but it’s the one that can make a difference at least in one’s mirror.

I didn’t sleep and now reality is blurred. I know that my thinking has slowed to a pace that is not keeping up with my head staying level. It is a situation that not only I can’t control but I worry will effect all those around me. Forgot about my fuse it’s past lit and if I had more energy I would be the aggressive driver. Luckily in the end sleep will prevail I just hope it occurs after I get home.

This advise will probably never be heard in a therapist office but it’s one I live with. When others annoy you, don’t understand you, don’t appear to care etc just don’t think about it.  That’s right throw it in a bottle and hit the gym or blast some music instead.  Keep your mind focused on the end zone and basically ignore the obstacles along the way. The truth is you’re probably not going to change their nature and moving on from them on can be so arduous so just ignore their journey as best you can and move in your own path forward.  Now you have it the one advise that no therapist will give you but just might get through this day.