It’s not my fault I have ADD. I’ve been diagnosed by any thinking 2-footer. I can’t stay focused on one object for too long and jump at the first bone I see until another appears. Having ADD is just who I am so deal with it or I’ll find someone else who will will take my licks instead.
It felt like it was just a matter of time before we came to blows, but out of the blue, the gloves came off. The fight I expected from the start ended with a dove instead. I had prepared my mind and body all day for the battle that I was sure was coming my way, only to be knocked out by the peace instead. Maybe it was because I was willing to take a few small hits before counterattacking, or could it be I killed them with my kindness? All I can say is timing is everything, and this time peace, thank G-D, was in my cards.
I just heard this song once, “Breathing My Last” by Obsidian Swing, and I don’t want it to leave my neurons before I hear it again. This is why it is now a “blog post” that I hope I can remember to listen to again and again and…. (you get the point). Rarely does a song catch me on “hello,” but this one has, and now it’s to determine how long a conversation it will be in the future.
Sometimes you need a song to escape reality, and “Kerosene” by the Warning is one of those songs. It allows you to push back reality for a moment and rock out instead. “Kerosene” let it explode those negative thoughts from one’s head.
Don’t Y-O-U know it’s a whole new world today!!! Yesterday, things were up and are now down, and everything else has been moved around. Can’t Y-O-U smell it?! How exciting is the day after the water is unleashed from the sky, and the wind truly takes control!! Yet you who walk on two legs can never truly smell these roses. Life has changed for the day, and it smells incredible!
FOOTNOTE- One of the things we “the intelligent species” miss that those with 4 legs truly enjoy.
You know the worst part of death is knowing. All the mysteries have been solved about such key issues as what happens when one dies and whether all those “things” actually mattered. There is no question of what reality is and isn’t because it’s right here for “eternity”. You are part of a bigger story now, which has no storyline, just existence. Well, at least I lived and wondered before.
I know there is no time machine I can use, but can you still pick M-E up? This is just another example of wanting the things I previously took for granted. As I pick Y-O-U and hold you in my arms, I’m jealous that this can’t be reciprocated in my current timeline. I also see history repeat itself as you appear reluctant to be held by M-E for too long. Yet trust M-E, the too long isn’t long enough when you realize this part of your timeline has ended. Another good reason to believe in reincarnation and see if this time I can get it right?
I relax here because I earned it and am proud of that! While others around M-E might refrain from the “earning part,” I truly am thrilled about it!!! Some would rather just get a paycheck, but I want to know each penny (if still made) is earned by doing that extra lifting, even if those around me would rather nap. Don’t get me wrong, I’d love to get some help, yet accomplishing something is usually the reward I truly seek, and I don’t understand why others don’t have this mindset in their mirrors.
This is the way it’s supposed to look, but you’ve been holding on to M-E instead. You’re the one who came out later, yet I’m relying on you to save my day. Yes, I still handle some of the bigger tasks, but I have to admit the emotional needs are reversed. Sometimes life works out in a different order than what is expected, and that is the mirror we’ve been living through our entire lives.
Everyone was casually speaking after the memorial for my father’s passing, but something compelled me to act in a whole different way. My mother came over to me, and I just gave her a hug; suddenly, tears that had been held back flowed down both our faces. It didn’t fully end the pain, but it changed it from “I’m sorry” to “it sucked,” and there was a resolution in that feeling that I wish I had let out earlier.
FOOTNOTE- Unfortunately, this came out in a dream which reversed life’s order.