Your spot hasn’t changed, just the color that comes out! Suddenly, everything that is around you is seen and felt in a whole different “light” which has others standing farther away or in a different room than Y-O-U. If only you recognize this color switch for no “apparent reason,” then life would be so much better in your mirror and mine, but the glow is going out and not coming in. You’re in the same spot, as nothing has truly changed except the color draining us all out.
I’m about to say “goodbye” to another “hello” in life’s journey. It’s a path that repeats throughout one’s years, sometimes forced on us by a nomadic lifestyle of parents, and sometimes chosen as one moves to different friends/associates. I know I often say hello for too long when goodbye is the answer because of fears of confrontation and loneliness, even when “hello” is right around the corner. Loyalty often has me saying “hello” when others would definitely say “goodbye”. Whatever has kept me on this road is moving again, and “hello” might be too a new face before I even fully say goodbye.
Do I take a day that starts at peace and bring it to confrontation as I said I would? It’s not like avoiding this confrontation won’t prevent another from coming on it’s just that at the moment their is peace. Denial is so easy when their is a covering even if it’s paper thin. The sad part is I don’t think they understand their own mirror which has brought the next to my heart and I desperately want them to look and feel even if it’s not possible. I’m honestly not sure if next is today or if it lays further down the line when the peace will be interrupted by their war.
All My Woman by Falling In Reverse and Hardy is a song that is F-U-N more “mature audiences” not only with the lyrics but the tone. This song tells the story of way too many suffering men who have judged with the wrong “head” and continue to be pulled in that direction even after the previous mistake(s). All My Woman by Falling In Reverse and Hardy not for the puritans out there but for those who probably wish they were now.
I’ve been a punching bag for so long and as those blows have hit you’ve gas lighted M-E even as they sting remains but enough is enough! You’ve utilized my conflict aversion and people pleasing attitude to get out of every hit but my happiness matters as well. I’ve tried to change this way and that way yet nobody could keep up to your moving targets. I’ve walked over egg shells layered here or there but now realize they’ve cracked before I even walked. Enough is enough and it’s time for M-E to stand strong!! I just hope this isn’t something just on a blog piece but a change in who I am.
One can love but not like. Feelings for another can be so strong yet still pull them apart. They might continue to argue and fight because of that underlying bond that is full of fire yet get burnt all the time. Could those marriages based on being fixed up develop a stronger bond then those who “found each other” instead. In the end I wonder if liking someone can build into a stronger love then falling into it and trying to find a way out?
It might appear strange but some people are for “Cancer”. I don’t mean in the one that kills one body but many innocent victims. Thank G-d because of modern medicine in many a cases “Cancer” starts out in a body as an underdog which we hope will still not draw any cheers. Yet when it comes to an “organism” which attacks many victims this “underdog” is rooted for? Can you imagine feeling sorry for Cancer because all it wants to do is live in peace in it’s world without thinking about it’s evil expansive plans? Yet the other organisms have the sympathy vote. Many feel “sorry” for the underdog even though it is the one attacking isn’t that strange? Hamas, Hezbollah & the Iranian regimes are examples of these cancers to society that for some reason people cheer for even as they take many a victim.
For them it was threat flowing in the wind for us on two legs it was just a balloon. Dogs perception of reality is twisted by what their mind and feelings allow their neurons to absorb. They are put through a simulation that we as the “higher species” create with our strange artificial objects effect all their senses. Their reality is twisted by what we allow them to experience or not as well as the way we react to it. Of course dogs traumatic experiences can add to a deluded thought, sound or even vision. We might appear to be the smarter being by looking in their mirror but I wonder how many cracks in the one we truly should be looking through?
Sorry, I’m just too busy to join your “episode”. Yes, I know you’re hurt and all that stuff but I don’t have time or the machine to explore unrectified “daddy issues” with Y-O-U. Sorry, I don’t mean to be cold it’s just I have some hot leads that are actually occurring now in “real time”. There is actual work on the table in front of M-E that needs to be completed so the work of the past will have to be dealt with in your own mirror. Therefore please have your “explosions” elsewhere so I can try and keep it all together right here.
It was meant to be funny, but the reaction was far from that. Literally two words, “so much” were the punch line, yet you wanted only the first after I said it. There was no way another homo-sapien could phantom how ” so much” turned into an explosion of “too much”. This joke became a trigger point, causing an episode that even the greatest scientific theory couldn’t explain. Yes, there was some trauma in your childhood that wasn’t resolved, and it keeps reappearing in even the smallest of words or actions, but “so much” come on, even that’s ridiculous in your book! I’ve had jokes bomb, but nothing that caused an explosion like this line, and G-D willing, my humor will never get this response again. Comedy is supposed to kill it, not leave the comedian feeling murdered, especially literally.