I miss Y-O-U today as I must run. I’d love to give new insight, provide a funny perspective or just be authentical M-E with Y-O-U but can’t as I must run early to work. I could be writing the piece that changes your life today but unfortunately I can’t because I have to be there extra early and if I started writing I don’t know where it would ….
We mourn the loss of Jessie Jackson for his loved one and those who have been touched by many of his words. He was an important civil rights leader for the time. Yet we shouldn’t forget that he was one who created a deep division between those of the African American community and those of the Jewish faith. It wasn’t just a word or two that he could later apologize for but pushing policies that would be harder to forgive. Jessie Jackson also funded his organization “Push” through threats to various businesses of boycotts and pressure campaigns if they wouldn’t pay. It’s important that we look at the whole picture of Jessie Jackson and I’m sure that most outlets will be pushing the “good side” as if he was saint. May G-D allow him though at this time to rest in peace even if it’s a bit more bumpy to get there.
“Roofman” is not just a movie but a way of seeing the world. Where many try to divide the world in deep black and white lines “Roofman” shows there is much gray in-between. Yes, people do bad things and deserve to be punished accordingly but for others they see a completely different image. It’s as individuals have their own coin to be flipped and many see only the heads or tails without looking in between.
****- Roofman hits the moments that keep the viewer entertained throughout.
My name is…. and I’m an addict. I know what I do is not good for M-E but it still stays in my mirror. Somehow I think this will be my last time but keep falling down that rabbit hole. I have days maybe even weeks where I’m completely clean and feel I’ve conquered it only to feel the pain 24 hour later that I’ve failed myself. Maybe it’s because I get such a high being wanted and fixing things that I studiedly believe this one can be fixed but no it will truly take a miracle. Yet if I can just through this one I know … nothing. I’m an addict and toxic relations is my poison.
Please don’t leave me like everyone else has. I know this side of me is difficult to deal with but it will pass if you can just give it time and I can somehow interrupt that you’re truly there for me. Words and actions will be taken to make you believe I want you to disappear but that is just a coping mechanism I’ve created to deal with pain from the past, present and future. It doesn’t make sense for one that doesn’t want to be alone but I put myself in this drowning water because somehow I feel I will be abandoned again. Don’t leave me know matter what a message from my subconscious.
I’m stupid, as the mirror will show it. I make many a decision that I know is wrong, but I am still emotionally drawn to it. It makes no logical sense other than I’m used to this abuse and haven’t found another pathway out. I know things won’t change, but I don’t have the resources to pull away when I should. Love is not only blind, but it’s also damn stupid at least in my mirror.
I’m angry, but nobody can know; even as everyone around me is exploding, I have to keep my cool. They can easily express how they feel, but if I do, I’m the problem. Honesty, it’s in their book with bright colors, but mine is hidden with invisible ink, although lately I feel that ink is seeping through. While others have the certificates, I have to act like a therapist 24/7 and don’t receive any compensation for my work, but a token of peace every once in a while. Is there anyone who will listen before I just lose it!!!
FOOTNOTE- Everyone can use a therapist, especially those who have to act like that in their daily life which is what is in my mirror now.
Does this song stay in your mirror or have you cracked through it? How much have you put on yourself or thrown on others instead? This song hits home way too many times in my past and I’m learning how to get it out of my life… well at least the lyrics.
Yesterday it was right there and now it’s just gone. Light turned to darkness as did everything between us. It appeared out of know where and suddenly everything was just lost. All the gains in the past dissipated like they never existed and were just replaced by pain and hate. Where did it go and when it will come back again?
Sorry for my brothers and sisters from the Elephant tribe but on this one I think are trunks should be down. The masks should come off unless their is a specific physical threat such as gas attack. Yes, I know you can be doxed but so can any other officer, judge and public official. This is just part of the standard risk you sign up for when taking on this position. Those that commit doxing type actions should be penalized to the fullest extent of the law but hiding makes people suspicious and that isn’t good in a democracy. You also should have your ID’s available when prosecuting a needed action because there truly is nothing to hide since you’re just enforcing the law. Maybe laws need to be tweaked here or there but this isn’t a policy we should die on a hill for and/or close the government down over.