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It is something we all face and how we deal with it will truly decide what kind of person we become. Some utilize it to “ponder thoughts” of betrayal, sadness, fear and anger while others find a deeper sense of who they are. We can be alone in times where we stand up for what we believe in when everyone else is sitting, or with a relationship that has become cold out of “know where” . All I can say is it stings and unless you have the right medication that loneliness can pull one down.

Joseph channeled those moments instead  to become closer to his purpose instead of letting them drown him. When he was sold into slavery by his own brothers that loneliness could have turned his story very dark and full of deep hate. Then just as he was getting comfortable in his position he was betrayed again by an awful false accusation that would have broke many a soul. Yet in his darkest alone hours it appears there was some act of kindness that he held onto by a stranger. Maybe it was the initial slave holder, prison guard that offered him a view that had some “light” in this darkness.

Lone less  is going to happen to us all but if we channel it for a closer relationship to the one who is always there for us 24/7 it will be a moment of solitude instead. This is where greater insight, hope and vision can be more transparent. Yet some will suffer from lone less especially in a crowded room and the medicine they need is a s simple “hello and how are you without precondition. G-D willing we find the good in those moments alone as Joseph did and see the light where others only see darkness.

The death of “Lindsey Graham” is another “Kyle Busch”, Prince, Jim Croce, Jack Kemp, Irene Kafka moment in my life. Where individuals bigger then life suddenly were no more. These individuals appeared to be so strong until it just ended. These are the type of people who really believed and/or did something remarkable with their life’s yet appeared to finish the sentence.

Lindsey Graham was a true deep advocate for a strong muscular foreign policy that was  about spreading freedom as far as it could go even as many felt it went too far. He stood by his principles even if he was the only one standing. Lindsey Graham is one who’s time might have passed but his legacy of ideas will continue for many a generation to come.

FOOTNOTE- Live Y-O-U-R life because you never know when the sentence just ends. 

The “T Employee Service” will be for the ones that want the few, the proud and the best in their companies. This service will train individuals through a boot camp type system to become the type of employees any company would want and when they get out pay extra to get.   They will not only be physically fit to perform, mentally competent for any task in their area of expertise but also have the emotionally stability to stay the course no matter what comes their way.  The “T Employee Service” for those who seek the best in their company and those that work there.

Know one could see him but M-E yet I would be the only one to notice. For, I was the sick one who had delusions so they would just think this was another.  This new house which was such a bargain had many a  hidden door.  The first time I thought it was just a bad dream as he snuck out of the hidden door and covered my mouth before I could say a word. I woke up to nothing but a little red ribbon that I don’t remember having before. Later the visits were sorta welcome especially when my family left me alone in the house. He was kind and said that we would be best friends forever. I trusted him like no other and protected me from all those that betrayed me. To the point that I had to do it. Now I’m alone again in that special hospital and a great “bargain” has hit the housing market … again.

It’s not new but just as powerful as if it was. Without further ado I give you “Family” by Badflower let your ears and neurons decide.

Anxiety, depression, mania, psychosis, paranoia, my clients continue through their cycles along my path. These clients are not individuals who come to some office but enter my front door 24/7 . For, my door isn’t usually locked but at least now, I’ve developed techniques to go into a  secret closet for an hour or so.  These clients aren’t strangers but loved ones who feel any room I lay in is an opening to their mental health issues.  Bellevue 24/7 my life cycle(s) that I wish I could escape from but my walls are padded instead.

“Smoking In Bed” is the only smoking which I approve of. For, when one inhales the vibes it feels real good without any leftover residue.  The tone of the song is just F-U-N and that is good for a decent drag. Smoking is not good anywhere but this one time maybe I’ll take it to the bed (please not literally) . Something not to sleep on but tap your foot to instead.

I can now stick out my head for my shell is strong! In the past that shell didn’t truly protect me from incoming as I snapped away or ran for cover.  Yet, through hard work and a “proper lifestyle” my shell is stronger then ever. It also took time to really look out the holes in my shell which was more difficult then it seemed because they were covered up with many a band aid from the past. Don’t get me wrong I’m far from perfect but at least now I’m walking forward one step at a time.

FOOTNOTE-  We can change what is around us but with therapy we can make our own shell to protect us from the incoming.

It was just a game, right? Yet when Stephen looked into the eyes of Paul it appeared as if the two players had their life’s on the line. Each move built on the other as boundaries were crossed and “a capture” occurred. For a novice like me it was amazing to get drawn into the action as if it was a World Cup Fifa match and I was up close and personal. This transformation occurred in my mirror because I looked at this sport of intelligence with a new lens. This was a lens that magnified the significance of each move not just occurring on the board but in the “hidden” emotions of each player. Their reaction told a different story then the book I expected to be seeing.   Moment by moment play by play once you’re drawn in you can’t look away.  Chess a game that has the slow burn of  a great mystery with an ending that nobody could predict.

Soccer Fifa yes!? I don’t know why but I’m actually enjoying watching soccer? I mean this is a slow game with few shots even on goal unlike sports like football and basketball. Many of these calls “Yellow” and “Red” card seem to be drawn with “prejudice” that tilt the game but also make it suddenly exciting!?  Could it be the constant play that keeps me glued to the screen like a car race or is it the tackles and over acting that keep me watching I don’t know?  Maybe it’s the surprise that the US is bringing to this cup that draws me especially as it’s our 250th birthday or could it just be the excitement from the fan base no clue all I can I like watching soccer now and that’s a question I didn’t expect to answer.

FOOTNOTE-  Good watching golf be far from my viewing habits?