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I was generally enjoying the show “The Pitt” until sadistic death was sliced into it. Here is a show about the ER and all its tireless efforts to save lives, yet it concludes that some are unworthy of any effort and will be eliminated like a bug.  Just because their location is not open in their worlds, not only should they be eliminated, but with joy along the way. Such a twist of irony that an emergency ward, which saves lives, can also be one that is the executioner. Maybe I will continue to watch to see if any discussion occurs on how life might be precious, no matter where it comes from, or just to see things from a different perspective, but I’m not sure it will be entertaining anymore, just become another piece of Hollywood leftist propaganda.

It’s that question that is truly black & white with a whole bunch of gray whichever way I go.  Should I wait because it will be more “peaceful” if I don’t or should I go through with it no matter what the pain to get there. If I do it well one side will be excited for me but the other side might be disappointed.   President Trump is thinking about finishing the job in Iran or giving more time for a “peaceful solution” while I’m thinking about attending one of his rallies in my hometown.

It will break but somehow it will also come back together. I’m not saying all the pieces will play the same way but the time will continue to move forward. For, you’ve been down this path so many times before and honestly it’s just a matter of time rather then an event or action. You’ve can’t stop this train from running unless you decide to jump off and then the landing well that’s the scary part. The fan has been hit before and it’s ready to take a # 2 any moment.  So just enjoy the peace because the break will happen when that song just seems perfect.

FOOTNOTE-  Now, to follow my own advise.

“Hard To Break” by Blake Whiten provides a clear explanation to those in toxic relationship and those who have loved ones suffering why this track is hard to get out of. It touches the emotional roller coaster that keeps them stuck in through all the lows for the highs appear just around the corner. Toxic relationships are much easier to see from the outside but inside “Blake Whiten” explains the blur that keeps them going.

Hasn’t this day occurred before or at least your words? As a matter of fact this is a repeat performance as if your studying lines for some show you’re performing for.   The show is called “Catastrophizing” and congratulations you’ve got the lead.  The only problem is I’m a sick of being in your audience so I’ll get a “bathroom break” because I’ve heard all before as if I’m you’re “understudy”.  Deja vu, groundhog day or just acting this is one which your mirror won’t let me fully leave.

FOOTNOTE-  No matter what eventually they’ll will be a storm but an umbrella doesn’t need to be opened all the time.

It only hurts because they mean so much too Y-O-U !! If it was just a stranger they would fade into your mind but the rage you feel is based on that perceived “betrayal”. One that is not only based on them but the abandonment you’ve felt all your life. For, when someone gets close to Y-O-U they always appear to take out the knife so why not protect yourself first before they can make that stab really stick.  Of course this is figurative but the pain is truly real and unless you get some help it will be a continual cycle that in the end your mirror will be the only one looking back.

FOOTNOTE-  Personality disorders are “really painful” to those that suffer from them and their loved ones who are often confused if they are truly loved especially “unconditionally”.

TRUMP-  You’re not going to treat me that way.

IRAN- Yeah, what are you going to do about it.

TRUMP- What are you stupid haven’t you seen we’ve taken all your cards!

IRAN-  No, I’m still in charge.

TRUMP- I can’t hear you anymore.

IRAN- What are you trying to give us the silent treatment.

TRUMP- I think I hear some little ant.

IRAN- You can’t talk to me like that.

TRUMP- Oops that ant is getting annoying. Time to step on it.

IRAN- Wait, wait.

TRUMP- Oh, look isn’t that a beautiful new Iran.

It is not who I am but one others put on M-E. When I looked at the mirror the only image I saw was the one that others portrayed with an occasional peak into something deeper. Now, with my therapist I find a new M-E that strangely doesn’t look like the “character” I’ve been portraying all this time and I sorta like him. For, with all the flaws and toxic experiences it’s still the authentic M-E and I’m not so bad after all even with the cuts Y-O-U dug into that mask. I took off the glue and hey I’m actually “beautiful” after all.