I’m still waiting for the pin to drop. Yes, the World Series has occurred and it couldn’t have been more quiet. Maybe the world events have taken over their spot or that it isn’t as easy to find when there was just basic cable yet somehow the World Series doesn’t even feel local. It used be all the rage but now I’m wondering is it even invited to the party. By the way the Texas Rangers won.
How is one not only survive but thrive when a loved one has a chronic mental illness? Here is some advise I’ve seen work in my life if only I’d follow it more.
(1) Take Care Of Oneself – It’s easy to get sucked into the life of those that are suffering but you can’t truly help them unless you give your self needed space and escape. Whether it’s a routine at the gym, writing, reading speaking to a therapist or just letting go with friends. Just make sure you take care of your needs as well.
(2) Different Life- Try not to compare your life in anyway with those who are in a different situation. The more you compare the more it can hurt. Do what is best for your individual situation.
(3) Logical Is Not Logical- Don’t try to rationalize with a loved one who is having an episode just try to relate to the pain that their own emotions are putting them through. Emotions are real even if what set them off may not be.
(4) You Will Lose- This is not a debate you can win for those that are suffering can be the greatest lawyers against their own best interests. Yes, state your point but then move on.
(5) Have An Escape- Find a way for your mind and body if need be to escape from an episodic event whether it be in the arts, work, gym or walk
(6) You Are A Projector- Try not to take things to personally especially when their projector is running.
(7) Breathe In- Make an extra effort to breathe in the good times and hold them in your head a bit longer. The difficult times will occur but if you can lesson their impact their effect will be lessoned as well.
(8) Find A Quick Page Turner- Redirect, redirect and did I say redirect. Trust me it will help you get through those difficult illogical moments.
Now to listen to my own advise.
The clock is standing still as I wait for “them”. Yet when they wait for M-E it truly wasn’t that long. I don’t know how this occurs it’s just a “fact” that perception tells me is correct. Time is flexible especially when one is waiting for others to make it move.
I didn’t agree just wrote for, until the words starting becoming my own. My job was to write for another who didn’t have the time to respond even though my “honest” responses would have been a whole lot different. It was a job but the responses I received clouded my positions till I starting believing many an untruth just to fit in. I thought my mind was set until the responses told me how flexible it could become. Now, I don’t know where I stand only how it makes me feel to “stand on their side”.
If one knows the punch is coming should one feel the pain before said impact? For, if someone does so would this cause the actual feeling to lesson or last longer? Is the object falling on the individual the impact of the emotion or the realization that this is about to occur? The only way to determine is to say “Ouch” 1st and then move away from what would occur at the last moment. “Ouch” 1st check the impact before it actually occurs.
Many claim that Palestinians were trapped under the brutal dictatorship of Hamas now we will see how many their truly are. For, as this vile organization is being pulled from their roots those who were afraid to speak out should starting shouting from the rooftops. These individuals should be working with the Israeli military to ward this Cancer from their land so they can truly live in peace and prosperity. The tide is a turning for liberation of the innocent Palestinians now let’s see how many jump aboard?
No, the sea didn’t split but what occurred in my life was still miraculous. For, I had lost my phone earlier in the day and searched endlessly for it which included contacting the security department, having the officials at the gym search for it and repeating my every step over and over again . Just as I was about to depart for my trip and had totally given up hope an individual at the hotel suddenly discovered the phone. This discovery led to another unbelievable finding which came across on the previous lost phone. My plane was at least two hours late. G-D had not only let me find my phone when all hope appeared lost but made sure I didn’t depart for a plane that wasn’t leaving. Miracles happen in the grand scale but often are seen when one is truly looking and praying they will appear.
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When one doesn’t have time for both “Liner” will fill that place in ones stomach. Liner will be the combination of the best of both worlds on one plate with “special drinks” to help it move down. “Liner” time could be anytime but probably be most popular between 2:30 -4:3o PM. Brunch move over because “Liner” will be the replacement those on the go, run too.
They continue to betray me, yet they call me sick! Supposed friends and family can never be trusted as they turn on me in an instant. I get so close and then I have to run away from the pain they bring into my life. It’s all too much for one person to bare so I go deeper and deeper into the abyss hoping someday I’ll find some understanding from all this pain. All I know is I’m not sick it’s everyone that was around me.
FOOTNOTE- Those battling mental illness are the greatest lawyers against themselves.
How do I escape a ghost that keeps following me? This ghost attacks when I least expect it to sending chaos throughout my body. It has come in all different forms and just won’t leave a moment of true peace. I don’t know what I did to deserve it, but the fear is eating me away from the inside out. Will I have to give everything up and start again even though there is so much I’d leave behind or is there so escape room that I could shelter in until this evil force leaves my presence? I don’t know all I know is I need to escape at least for my own sanity.