I wasn’t hurt until you told me I understand that I should be. Those “remarks” didn’t even pinch my skin until you twisted them into my soul. It didn’t appear to bother me at all until you through that mirror in my face.   I guess you were right it was cruel and mean but why don’t I feel better after you told me about “my pain”?  Maybe I should think more about my own feelings and own up to them or maybe… their yours instead? I don’t know all I know is I  now feel hurt and I’m even confused whether  I should thank you for this revelation.

I’m a hyper person that usually starts one task before they even see how the last task was completed but something changed this Sunday. For all of a sudden my actions were slowed down to a crawl as I helped my loved one do the basic stuff that we often take for granted. Whether is was walking a few tasks or just exhaling into a machine to gain strength I was able to make a difference in her life and it made a great difference in mine as well. Helping my loved one with these basic steps was remarkable rewarding.  It gave me a new prospective that even as I try to change the world making a difference in one’s world step by step or breath by breath might be a path I need to be on as well.

They say one can not speak from the grave but I’ve escaped to tell you my story.  I’m not sure when the heat will come to pick me up so I better write fast.  I didn’t commit suicide as those who took my life would want you to believe but was taken their by those who wanted to kill this story by eliminating me. Individuals who had secrets they wanted to be left in the grave and knew if they could eliminate my lips this would occur.  These powerful people have their minions everywhere including many prisons. Their minions will take someone out for them if it will protect and provide for their loved one’s outside these  walls.  So now it’s time for to reveal who had me sent to this burning hot spot and help him get here quicker as well. His name is…….

FOOTNOTE- We’re sorry Mr Epstein has accidentally fallen down a deep well in hell.,, Oops.

It was either going to be me or him as we stood inches apart.  For he crossed my red line and we knew that now one of us wouldn’t come out alive.  I tried to warn him to back away for I was in no mood for his invasion of my land.  If only he walked an opposite path or at a different location we could have parted as friends instead now one of us would be six feet under.   A shower is a sacred location when it’s running my way and Harry (the waterbug …I think) should have known crawling in my direction would be last steps in his life.

Tisha B’Av is a holiday painfully observed. For on this holiday one remembers the destruction of the Temple(s) that occurred on this date along with other tragedies to the Jewish people and the world (see link below). They say history repeats itself if we don’t learn the lessons of it Tisha B’Av makes sure we never forget them.

https://www.chabad.org/library/article_cdo/aid/946703/jewish/What-Happened-on-the-Ninth-of-Av.htm

Now I know how she feels. For you can tell me anything you want but your clothes smell a different story.  It hurts to know after all the fun times that I thought we had together that you would seek someone else to pet.  I always thought I would be your 4 legged best friend for life but now I wonder if I should be licking someone else instead.

FOOTNOTE- It’s been 5 minutes which is like a lifetime to me so let’s just go for a walk.

I’m your cow in the way you can lead me. For I hired you to make sure that my pasture is always looks green and I will follow that path with trust. Yet a cow is not a chicken or duck even if you put it in a different costume so place don’t try to lead me down that path. I’m also not a sheep and therefore will not blindly go over a cliff. I trust you take these  points into account as you lead toward the place of milk and honey.

FOOTNOTE – Hey, I might be your cow but I’m a rebellious one with honey on my lips.

President Bernie Sanders has just revealed that the mother ship plays a bigger role in his life and that he is truly an illegal alien after all.    When he said that he would reveal the truth about aliens should he become President many assumed it would be some special FBI files not that he was one and the kind. 

This of course came after President Sanders passed an Executive Order giving all Illegal Aliens the same exact rights of current citizens. The Supreme Court will be looking into whether that act  constitutes that of non-human species as well in their upcoming session. We all knew many of President Sanders ideas were out there but did we literally know they were out of this world?

FOOTNOTE– You’re vote counts for Aliens and people in the 2020 election even if this story is fictitious.

You might want me to continue to play but all that is left in my deck is Joker’s and that’s not the game G-D has me in. It’s time for me to go home even as you pull me to stay for my deck has been dealt and there isn’t another one on this table .  Just hold onto those Aces we had together for as long as they stay within you I will always be here even if my soul longs for a different home. You may want me to continue to play but Joker’s are all I have left in this hand and G-D’s deck is a full house where I must go to play.

Don’t tell me you understand!  How can you identical twins are not meant to be apart. It’s not fair it’s not right!  Our connections go back to the real beginning then how can we have different endings? Why am I’m left here alone while she is the better place. We shared everything together from our first hair-cut to the boyfriends that never knew and now she is gone and deep down inside I am as well. Who truly knows me now like my identical twin did?   I’m existing here but barely unable to eat and wanting to sleep all the time I just want to go home with her.

Yet the light of loved one’s from her side as well as mine have started igniting a different fire. I know that she only wanted the best for others even when she wrong and doesn’t that mean her identical side?  It’s time I scrape off the layers of pain and live here for that is what she truly wants from where she is flying high.  G-D knows I will try but please note this journey is hard and I need more love and understanding then I truly know just to move again.

FOOTNOTE- Told from the soul of a loved one.