One of the toughest aspects of a strong leader is breaking the will of those that try to assert control.  You need to calmly stay in control as they do everything in their power to try and make you lose it.  Drawing that line in the sand even as you are pushed, pulled and badgered just to give in.  Yet when your decision is final and they accept it there is a satisfaction that makes it all worth it even if you’re exhausted at the end.

I have written a great deal about the various forms of health one should take care which include mental, physical and spiritual health but I neglected one which can cause more sickness then I first assumed.  Having friends/family in one’s life in a healthy relationship can help add balance when the others might not be as strong as they should be. For social relationships give one’s the impetus to move farther then their body or mind may not feel they are capable of.  Social relationships that are full of too much pain and angst can be more harmful then good and should be replaced or at least co-exist with more positive human influences. We also can subtract from painful relationship with the help of our 4 legged friends.    Of course a relationship with your creator is the top one individuals should worry about yet without a human touch one can feel empty and melancholy.  For G-D didn’t create us to live alone but with others who can make us think, feel and love.

The faces might have a bit more wrinkles and gray hair but high school times still remain. For although the lines might be less deep there is still the cool, nerds, jocks and jokesters that remain among others and until some drop out of the picture the lines will still be there. People will generally associate with those in their clique when it comes to a meaningful relationship even if those outside could provide more depth. Some will continue to try to move into one group with a fancy car that doesn’t fit, or a personal trainer which adds more dollars to the trainers waste while yours stays the same.  While others learn to accept their role in life with pride which eventually moves them into the “cool crowd” even if it that doesn’t occur until they attend a senior school of living.

I’m just that one person in your life among thousands but I believe my color should stand out. For while others initially believed that a mistake was made I believed G-D choose this path instead. There were times where my color stood out in solving problems that shook your world and I was able to add a bit more balance before you fell.  A path where one time(s) I was privileged to save the day as others believed you needed more sleep and I saw a need to visit the hospital(s) instead. Which lead me to continue to watch you even from the crowd. I thank G-D that I can still watch you from the crowd and hope that someday even when G-D leads me down a different path my colors will still shine a bit in your eyes.

If you were the only one to pluck these hair strings would you continue to play? For do you like something because internally you really like it or have the external forces made you play their tune? How many times have you truly enjoyed something as the world around you thinks it’s a miss? Even when you are ready to play how long can you do it alone?  This is what a true rebel brings to the orchestra and sometimes is kicked out before the band even starts to play. A shame because once we listen behind the look beautiful music can often be heard.

FOOTNOTE- I wouldn’t play her tune as well but would love to look and listen.

I’m fighting a battle only I know that I’m fighting. It’s a fight you would never knew I was in if you saw me, well that is unless I was on the beach. Yet I have become obsessed with this  battle even though there is no way my opponent will be able to even hit me back. You might say it’s a battle for vanity but truly it won’t effect my appearance. I guess it was the boxing gloves that came in a liquid which put me in this ring and has me continuing this fight until I knock this toe fungus out of my toe… or my gloves/liquid get lost.

FOOTNOTE- This is just one of the battles I fight alone many others have spectators waiting to come in.