I finally accepted that this title will be another handed to another sibling and I’m fine with it. Truthfully I can’t say that I’m delighted with this realization but the truth is you can’t have it all and the one with the title is well deserving. Even though I try in my own way I can’t be as good as them especially in the categories of enjoying the same things and expressing the same points without not being who I am. If I was that way well maybe I wouldn’t be as faithful as I am to my beliefs and loyal to the causes that have another slice in my life. We can only be who are and in some ways that might have us lacking in some areas but growing in others.