They have often dropped my strength by the control that they have possessed over M-E. I was a puppet to follow and fit exactly into their structure until I started to cut away into freedom. Yet I still fear their influence and negative feedback continues to pull me in. It is a weave that has taken a lifetime to see in my own mirror just as Truman was a show he didn’t want to be in. I have to listen to advise just not allow it to possess my being. Thank G-D the mirror is brighter and I can see a whole new future even if some strings still remain.