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I possess Y-O-U as I don’t allow you to look in your mirror but another.  I continue to tell Y-O-U that every dark emotion has to do with them instead of the one who truly holds your keys. The truth is if you’d look into your mirror you’d see that the hormones, fight response, sleep deprivation are truly your triggers and I wind them up any chance I can. I will have you look at them with a microscope making every word and action on their side an eruption instead of a tremor.  Blaming others allows me to weaken you from within until you’ll put it all on your parents, psychiatrist and former loved one . Then it will be just M-E and you with only one victor. The one with a two letters who truly pulls your chains.

You actually asked me why without even looking at the “because” in your mirror. Yes, it had to do with Y-O-U it always does and for that moment someone actually looked at M-E instead.  They found M-E fascinating and kind even as you’re mirror has been cracked for years.  I wasn’t even looking or “acting” as I do in your world and still they saw the good through it all.  So before you ask why maybe because your not even looking.

I don’t delete posts but after learning more about “Ozzy Osborne’s” actually life I sorta wish I did.  For, my life and Ozzy’s couldn’t be more different as he gave into every “crave” on his plate no matter the consequences I barely even look at mine. Many catered to his ever whim and fancy even when he was at his darkest spot while I’m lucky if I can pay for “catering services” when I’m dressed to the T.  I’m sure Ozzie’s life decisions caused him pain but even decisions I haven’t made have hurt M-E.  Ozzie did almost everything to destroy his life and I tried always to do everything to build mine.  I guess in the end a higher authority will make the final decision on it all even if our path has been on a completely different course.

Sorry Ozzie it took your passing to fully understand Y-O-U.  Yes, you pushed the envelope in your youth but that was only because the goal was entertainment first and foremost. Just as “Dracula” was the Prince Of Darkness so did you adopt the title but at least sucked no blood (bat story excluded). Yet through it all the music enthralled us and took us out of the “ordinary” to extra-ordinary of just plain F-U-N. May the train take you and your F-U-N through the heavenly gates.

It might look like I have everything but behind this smile and makeup I’m damaged goods.  I hide it well through many an activity which keeps me busy enough so the damage is way below the “surface” but waiting to explode once the motion is stopped. Pain, suffering, hurt is something that is in my corner even though you may never see it until it’s too late to escape for M-E and maybe even Y-O-U.

FOOTNOTE-  We all have been damaged by things in our life’s it’s just the amount we let out or keep deep inside.

I’m time obsessed partly because of the world I live in and the one which lives in M-E.  With limited time on the clock I try to get as much done between 9-5 and make sure that cycle continues way after the clock has broken. It’s too the point that watching a .30 second video can feel wasted unless something is gained with the experience. There was a time I could watch a ballgame on the tube now it’s the last few moments unless it’s in the “super category”.  Time obsession has taken M-E to end arguments before I get in any words and let M-E forget about things I should honestly be thinking about.  Yet time is a ticking and I don’t want it to stop before….

Whether one works like a dog or it’s scene later it feels good for one’s earned it. I’ve always been one who believes things given make someone feel obligated while those given allow one to feel free.  For, you’ve earned this “reward” because of the challenge you had to endure to get there and nobody can take that away. It doesn’t have to be bold and big just doing something that your lazy side doesn’t want you to do.  Earn it and the joy of the reward will smell owe so much better.

It’s been many a year but he’s still got it!! Justin Bieber “Daisies” shows he still got the vibe running through his veins.  His voice holds true and the song is as catchy as a “baby” smiling.  “Daisies” worth a look, smell and now a listen.

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I’m just your towel so why think anymore about M-E!! Well maybe because many other’s like Y-O-U had made a great deal of effort for M-E to wrapped around your body including those in design, marketing, manufacturing and distribution. Oh well those factors don’t count when grabbing M-E well then how about all the fibers of cotton and other fibers that must come together to hold you so tight.  Ignoring that as well, then think of those before who wore M-E, well maybe not that I don’t want you to get triggered or something. Can we at least talk about our history together and how I got you out of that cold shower huh?  How about the smoothness, color and style that I wrap you around in does that matter at least? Maybe the history of towels can help?  All I ask is that before you toss me to the side again please be a bit more mindful of M-E and hold me a moment longer.

There might be a stronger connection between those who traditionally follow Judaism and those that are strict environmentalist.  Here are just a few observations (below).

(1) Those who are traditional drive the maximum of  6 days a week in observation of Shabbos and other holidays.  Walking is there means of travel much more then most.

(2) Traditional Jews don’t eat Milk and Meat together so there carbon footprint is lower at many a dinner table.

(3) These individuals tend to have larger families so that owning an extra carbon burning summer house is not possible.

(4) Tu BiShvat is a Jewish holiday that celebrates the environment and was formulated way before this modern green movement.