It’s that question that is truly black & white with a whole bunch of gray whichever way I go. Should I wait because it will be more “peaceful” if I don’t or should I go through with it no matter what the pain to get there. If I do it well one side will be excited for me but the other side might be disappointed. President Trump is thinking about finishing the job in Iran or giving more time for a “peaceful solution” while I’m thinking about attending one of his rallies in my hometown.
It will break but somehow it will also come back together. I’m not saying all the pieces will play the same way but the time will continue to move forward. For, you’ve been down this path so many times before and honestly it’s just a matter of time rather then an event or action. You’ve can’t stop this train from running unless you decide to jump off and then the landing well that’s the scary part. The fan has been hit before and it’s ready to take a # 2 any moment. So just enjoy the peace because the break will happen when that song just seems perfect.
FOOTNOTE- Now, to follow my own advise.
“Hard To Break” by Blake Whiten provides a clear explanation to those in toxic relationship and those who have loved ones suffering why this track is hard to get out of. It touches the emotional roller coaster that keeps them stuck in through all the lows for the highs appear just around the corner. Toxic relationships are much easier to see from the outside but inside “Blake Whiten” explains the blur that keeps them going.
I shouldn’t have but I did and lived to tell another story. These creatures looked at M-E first and I needed to see why? Yes, I know they could have crushed M-E but it wasn’t enough to stop my curiosity so I took this bold flight. My ancestors warned M-E not to fly this close yet I’m not a cat, right? Since I survived maybe next time I’ll land right on them and see what occurs. Step by step I’ll explore or die trying.
Hasn’t this day occurred before or at least your words? As a matter of fact this is a repeat performance as if your studying lines for some show you’re performing for. The show is called “Catastrophizing” and congratulations you’ve got the lead. The only problem is I’m a sick of being in your audience so I’ll get a “bathroom break” because I’ve heard all before as if I’m you’re “understudy”. Deja vu, groundhog day or just acting this is one which your mirror won’t let me fully leave.
FOOTNOTE- No matter what eventually they’ll will be a storm but an umbrella doesn’t need to be opened all the time.
It only hurts because they mean so much too Y-O-U !! If it was just a stranger they would fade into your mind but the rage you feel is based on that perceived “betrayal”. One that is not only based on them but the abandonment you’ve felt all your life. For, when someone gets close to Y-O-U they always appear to take out the knife so why not protect yourself first before they can make that stab really stick. Of course this is figurative but the pain is truly real and unless you get some help it will be a continual cycle that in the end your mirror will be the only one looking back.
FOOTNOTE- Personality disorders are “really painful” to those that suffer from them and their loved ones who are often confused if they are truly loved especially “unconditionally”.
TRUMP- You’re not going to treat me that way.
IRAN- Yeah, what are you going to do about it.
TRUMP- What are you stupid haven’t you seen we’ve taken all your cards!
IRAN- No, I’m still in charge.
TRUMP- I can’t hear you anymore.
IRAN- What are you trying to give us the silent treatment.
TRUMP- I think I hear some little ant.
IRAN- You can’t talk to me like that.
TRUMP- Oops that ant is getting annoying. Time to step on it.
IRAN- Wait, wait.
TRUMP- Oh, look isn’t that a beautiful new Iran.
I’m that “Bottom Dweller” that you hardly think about unless I’m not “on”. You go about your day just stepping on M-E as if I’m nothing not one that keeps you all snuggled in. If it wasn’t for M-E where would you actually go yet do I get any credit, N-O!! As soon as you see a cut or tear you’ll just toss me aside like an old …. Yet, I’m loyal enough to walk along your side even if it’s my last step. Boy, do I feel used and forgotten! Who Am I?
What happens when it’s done? I have been going through each and ever draw in my house for only 10 minutes a day and now it appears that my time is up. Yes, I can really get down and dirty but the overall goal of organizing and getting rid of real junk is less then an hour away to completion. This mission could be finished by next week and then what? The truth is G-D willing the clock will continue to run and trust me if I know M-E I’ll be removing the mess 10 years from now.
FOOTNOTE- Gee, that thingmajig looks very interesting.
Is this it has my story been written and I’m just walking to the edge? I never wanted to retire but my time has expired at my office and now there is a whole world I can explore at my leisure but what happens if I don’t feel like looking? Yes, I have the funds and now time to play a bigger role here or there but I liked where I was staying as well as fitting those pieces here and there now there’s just too much space. Suddenly retired something I never planned to be and not sure where I will truly land.
FOOTNOTE- Planning for retirement is not only something for your wallet but your mind as well.