Sorry, I don’t speak your language. You can put all exclamation points at the end of your rambling but I can’t understand it. Maybe it’s because you’re denying yourself the mental health treatment that is in your mirror that I’ve decided not to translate anymore. I can pick up on some words like “Yes, No” but only the ones that have some truth attached to them. So do yourself a favor if you want to be understood get professional help that can translate it to you and maybe even me.