It’s okay you’re probably forgiven. For, if G-D could forgive those who built the golden calf after the greatest revelation in any lifetime surely thou could forgive Y-O-U. Especially in a time when the signs sometimes are hidden deep in a cloud. We’ve all made mistakes yet unless there in the golden calf category repentance, charity and a new heart might just be enough to pull out the eraser and start again. G-D willing this is the path you are pulled on after the tears have been wiped away.