Have my eyes run dry or is my heart just cold? For, I have not shed a tear for a loved one that has left me. Yes, it could be because the whole thing appears surreal as one minute she is happily talking to me the next the words have stopped permanently. This is a woman whose role with me has lasted over 30 years as not only a manager of my business but in many ways my life and yet the eyes are still dry. Maybe the losses of my father, mother, aunts, and uncles have cut off my watering stream or could it be that a deeper part of me believes I will see her sooner than I think? The funeral and speeches have not occurred so there is still time for my humanity to leak out and maybe when it does it might just be a flood.