While watching my situation an outside observer asked “why” and as my normal responses came out loyalty, the bigger picture the why still stood out? I really don’t need this as much as those who discount my feelings and objectives so why do I take it anymore? Yes, the overall goal is being met but could it be achieved with a more positive experience? Is it that deep down I’m afraid that one step away from this abuse could lead to a worse path? There are many rationale reasons why I take it but I wonder if those that keep me asking wonder if one day I’ll just ignore those answers.