I lay in complete darkness unable to remember how many days before that there was actual light in my life. It appears to be some type of room or cell that I’m locked in but how I got here and why is a mystery to me. One day I’m invited to the escape of a lifetime with friends way above my dreams the next I’m living in a nightmare which I’m unable to awake from. The darkness is almost a separate living organism listening to my every move and breath. This is the worst of a roller coaster of a life where so many times when everything appears to be rising up it suddenly comes crashing down. This is a track it appears I continue to travel on over and over again. Yet now it’s more dark then ever and I’m afraid maybe this time I caused the light to go out.
FOOTNOTE- This blog piece is dedicated to Andrew Hartley who helped me see the dark.