DEDICATED TO THE WOMAN ON THE EDGE
My emotional side says I should leave him but another side is pulling me back in. Which side is really wrong/right for me and my family? Sometimes he appears abusive to me not in the physical sense although it has come to that as we’ve taken our swings but more on the emotional side such as “could I do better” and “they look happier”. It is not as if he’s been totally cruel I’m just so confused. Here’s what I’m dealing with (below).
CHILDREN- There not babies but any separation pulls children apart in a harmful way.
SUPPORT- We have drifted away or never real sailed the same ship when it comes to many of the pulses that ignite the heart.
MOVING- Separating items is never easy when leaving after you lived together and how do you pick up that important item you left behind.
VOID- He may not be perfect but he fills that void of having an extra body in your life.
MONIES- If I wasn’t married this cost would be easier to access but he’s basically the bread winner and do I really want to start working extra hours to support my basic life style.
TIME- How much time do I really spend him when I consider my work and even private time? Is the cost of a few hours in a week really worth the time, effort and monies it cost to separate.
FAMILY & FRIENDS- Most of the other people in my life are related to his life do I really want to start a new.
Maybe I can change and by so doing see this picture in a whole new light.