Monthly Archives June 2024

If only you knew the pain I felt you wouldn’t even ask. You’d see that this is the only thing I can focus on it and show some empathy instead. Even this wound doesn’t give justice to the other deeper ones hidden from your view. I can’t look at the good of the past when this is lingering right here, right now.  I might have a “good life” outside of this pain but can’t you see that I’m still bleeding and it truly hurts!  You’ve might have done some great things then but excuse me if for what I’m feeling right now, ok!!!!  What’s worse is even when some type of band aid is applied it opens up again and sometimes with a bitter cut.  The only difference with the picture you see here and the one I feel is the wound is in a different location but it still hurts just as much.

FOOTNOTE-  Sometimes it’s hard to see the pain those that are suffering from mental health issues go through.

If the clouds never appeared would I truly understand?  When people act outside a puzzle I don’t throw away the pieces but search for clues to grow. This unravels many mysterious of behavior which help me understand the emotional impact of words, actions and even non-action.  I understand that what motivates one may not be scene on another’s landscape.  If life was simply “good” I couldn’t see the picture truly occurring beneath it.  With every battle I face I become wiser to the world around me which enables me to live in a deeper peace knowing how I can truly avoid the war. G-D willing this greater understanding will enable me to build stronger better relationships in which the sunlight comes through even the darkest cloud.

How did you forget about M-E!!! I’m really a F-U-N holiday with Cheesecake & Ice Cream but you don’t even know my name!!  The holiday when the big 10 Commandments come out for all the world to hear but you’re not listening why?  I know the other holidays have competition from other faiths but think mine truly changed the world and for G-O-O-D and still no Hallmark Cards, not even one!! Can someone get a new marketing team, someone!! Hello, I’m out there and it’s only one well two if your traditional days of the year.  So, please not only next year in Jerusalem but also maybe Shavuot as well … please.

I discovered a holiday that was hidden from my youth that is truly a “Kosher Pearl”. Shavuot celebrates the giving of the Ten Commandments a monumental event in human G-D relationship for just let’s say eternity. Here is the one time where all the world heard the voice of G-D in one instance or at least few hundred thousand (depending on your interpretation).  It is the document to this day that binds people of various sects and faiths together even if they split on other matters.  While other holidays are more somber and serious this a joyful happy occasion filled with Cheesecake and Ice Cream.  Let me get this right the giving of the 10 Commandments, Joy and Ice Cream and somehow it’s still hidden? Well G-D willing next year many more people of the faith will own their pearl as they join in this wonderful celebration called Shavuot.

I lived with her only a day but I left my mark. For the day I was born they thought it would lead to many more but one was all I was given.  My mom spent nine months having me and all the doctors and nursed did everything to keep me here but G-D wanted me home before the day even ended. I was the least famous but for some reason I still felt the unconditional love of those closest to M-E. G-D willing I will return and this time with many, many… more days and fame on my next journey to life.

I feel like me and Ryan Reynolds are having a bromance. It’s if he’s comfortable invading my private space without touching of course. He speaks to me at least five days a week twice a day and honestly won’t shut up. This last part if for Ryan, my friend.  Ryan you know I not only know about Mint Mobile at this point but have memorized your lines. If you want to just hang out give me a ring I’ll even convert to Mint Mobile if that would truly help our bromance. Friendship is a two way street.

FOOTNOTE-  If you want to have a bromance with Ryan Reynolds listen to We’re Alive podcast and trust me he’ll be speaking to you more often then you like.