My name is…. and I’m an addict. I know what I do is not good for M-E but it still stays in my mirror. Somehow I think this will be my last time but keep falling down that rabbit hole. I have days maybe even weeks where I’m completely clean and feel I’ve conquered it only to feel the pain 24 hour later that I’ve failed myself. Maybe it’s because I get such a high being wanted and fixing things that I studiedly believe this one can be fixed but no it will truly take a miracle. Yet if I can just through this one I know … nothing. I’m an addict and toxic relations is my poison.