Revelation comes in sparks and spurts as last night was such a spurt. Here (below) are some components that have made me who I was and who I’m trying to be less of.
(1) PEOPLE PLEASER- Many times I’ve put the interest of others above my mind even to my own mental and physical well being. People pleasing was a 10 now it’s probably closer to a 7 with 6 being a realistic goal on my mirror.
(2) CONFLICT AVERSION- I would avoid a conflict like the plaque now I’m starting to tip a toe in them and realizing I’m not getting burnt although I always made exceptions for politics and religion in this category.
(3)BULLIED- Even as I’ve aged the bullies have found their resting place with M-E even in subtle ways because words aren’t supposed to hurt M-E. Yet my zingers have started to put them in their place.
(4) ENTERTAINER- I do like to be the center of attention but now I can watch from the audience without dreaming about being on that stage.