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This might be the scariest journey of all to the world where I actually “do what I want”. In my people pleasing way I have not turned this key often and when I start to I get pulled away with “yes” instead of “no”. Now, I’m breaking free but have spent so much time being entangled in others that I’m not even sure what I truly want. Don’t get me wrong I have shot for certain goals but I wonder was it for M-E or to proof it to others instead? What I want is now something I must discover and hopefully there is still some time to open the door and walk through.

I wasn’t lying I was just looking at the wrong mirror. All the images I had seen and felt were distorted in ways that were far from reality. Yes, X did that but it was basically all my mirror allowed M-E to see rather then the other side. I became fixated on what was in front of my mirror that I couldn’t just look away. It let me to life full of confusion and loneliness until a different reality appeared from under the cabinet of the mirror. Occasionally the old mirror appears but now there are others in my room as well.

FOOTNOTE-  It’s key to have a mirror reflect the true reality in one’s life but often we have distorted ones instead.

It’s exhausting and sometimes feels like I’ll never get it done so why keep going? Others won’t even pick up a nail yet I have to keep hammering away? There all out there having fun while I’m toiling away for some future I don’t know will actually come. Maybe I’m just delusional for if everyone is not hearing the truth why should I be different? I’m Noah and I’m building some “Ark” tell me is it really worth it?

I understand…. not.  Honestly, I’m more of an actor than one who listens to your “problems”.  For if I am to do my position correctly, then I have to put myself in your mirror and trust me, that isn’t easy.  See your mirror is full of blemishes you

Most may not live up to the picture above but everyone should lift up a finger to get any government assistance. When the government gives away “free” anything it becomes a disincentive to those who worked for it and those who could have the potential to do so. Therefore whether it’s medical expenses, food, shelter etc one should have to participate to earn it based on their abilities, potential and most importantly “self worth”. If someone can’t work at all then volunteering would be a necessity it could be something as simple as reading a book to children, walking dogs at a shelter, writing a poem to inspire others.  The need to earn something of what one receives will make things more just for those that  pay for it and those that receive it.

I’m still here even though not physical with AI -M-E.  For all my thoughts, ideas and way of even thinking are now installed in A-I version of M-E.  This version can run 24/7 and allow my way of thinking to still exist even if I don’t.  After years of inputting this information and testing it out while I was here A-I is practically M-E without working to be there.  Now I can continue even when I’m no longer here.

FOOTNOTE-  AI-M-E can also be used to basically clone your thoughts when your feet are moving in to many different directions.

“Kill The Ghost” by Little Image is not only a great song but a cool title. This song has the lyrics that bring you in and a beat that keeps you banging along the way. I hope you love it as much as I do but even if you don’t you’ve got to admit the name of the song is really cool.

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Because of Y-O-U

(1) I learned to truly appreciate peace in all it’s forms

(2) Friends really are special

(3) I realized that there was no way one can make someone happy if they are truly unhappy inside.

(4) That a mirror showed M-E that taking care of my own mental health was equally important.

(5) Fun could be had alone.

(6) Even a village can’t make someone feel good if things aren’t right inside.

(7) Logic can go out the window when emotions take over.

(8) People pleasing is something that I can’t really accomplish

(9) That peace of mind is something that can’t be achieved with money or fame.

(10) One should hold onto those special moments for as long as they can.

(11) Anger/hate can come out of anywhere at anytime for no real reason.

(12) I know how important it is to spell out my intentions before an action or words are taken.

FOOTNOTE-   You probably will never accept this mirror but I thank you for revealing it to M-E

I just want to be loved for who I am with all my flaws and imperfections. Is that too much to ask for?  Why must I walk alone with nobody truly by my side especially when things are tough? Could there really be someone out there who would take my 2 AM calls?  Is there anyone who can truly a sense of my pain, loneliness and despair without having four legs? I guess this is a higher source that is the eternal source of love yet I would to encounter someone of the homo sapien variety. I just want to feel loved instead of the feeling I have right now.

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