I want peace many times at a stupid point. Conflict aversion causes me to lesson the blows even when the missiles are launched all around M-E. It’s not that I’m not ready for a battle I just pick them from many a field. I worry that when I fight it will turn nuclear so I keep my missiles at bay. Yet the defense of boundaries has limited the damage I’ve seen even as the war continues on the other side. Peace at a stupid point the existence I’ve chosen but am currently fighting against.