I just want to escape but it appears I’m going in circles again and again. For what has kept me here for years won’t allow me to escape. Just when I think it might be safe my world explodes in a sickness that encompasses everything. Yet it’s not my mirror but those closest to me that draw me in and one crack of an eggshell can set up this episode that spirals out of control. During such times hate, anger, fear and total confusion are the emotions that trap me in. I break free for the moment only to allow it’s ugly side to reappear. For when a loved one has a mental condition you never feel free.