I’m abused and still won’t leave! What am I stupid or just living in a dream of better days? For some reason I believed I could be that superhero that saves you when everyone else has given of hope. I’d pray for some new future even as clouds are arising from all sides. Yet today even as my powers are slipping away I still stay. If I did this or that differently walked on this eggshell instead of yet they cracked even before I got there. Maybe it’s history, fear of the unknown, stupidity or a combination of the above that has kept me in this abused cycle. All I know is I’m abused and somehow have to stop being the victim.