They say I’m “too big” to go to your party yet 10 years ago I would have died for an invite. I’m “too big” to wear those clothes even they are what feels right for me. They make me feel as if a whole city (hair stylist, publicist, make up artists etc etc) are dependent on every step I take and if I walk the wrong way I’ll create an earthquake which some won’t recover. I’m now “too big” to be myself and maybe it’s worth being small again.