Everytime I get close to a “greatness” another wall is put in front of my face. Without appearing totally paranoid it’s if some “deep state” is making sure I stay in place. I can travel in a totally different direction and yet as soon I get close that wall will appear again. It’s usual that person who was always “responsible” suddenly forgetting that word or something beyond my control suddenly appearing out of know where. I guess in the end I’m an expert on walls G-D willing enough so that I finally find a crack that will allow the greatness to finally seep through.