I have it but it leaves me in an instant. I try my best to hold on to it and grow it but whatever I do it eventually leaves me in the dust. Yet it comes back to me as if nothing has happened. It haunts my being as I worry what will I do without it. It’s the fight that keeps on coming and yet in the end I know one of us will depart 1st for good I just don’t know when, where or how? Some call it the green monster that lurks behind every move one makes. I try to live my life, to the fullest yet fear of losing it overwhelms me. Others try to tell me there is nothing to fear for I’m in a great spot that they would love to be at, but I can’t shake this it out of my head as I live in f-e-a-r.