I finally got to breathe my 1st breathe out in this beautiful world but I’m not sure how many more I will have. For the doctor and my mother are speaking and though I don’t know much tears are coming out of her eyes as I lay here alone. The breaths are becoming harder to take not like when I was safely tucked inside. Why am I abandoned in this place where if I was born in a different state they would fight to keep me alive? What did I do to deserve this painful cruel faith when I didn’t even have a chance to do anything.