The hardest part about being insane is learning to trust others above one’s own mirror. Suddenly, I have to realize my mirror has a crack in it and what I’m seeing is actually distorted from the reality around M-E. What makes it worse is this also the audio tape that my ears hear is so different compared to the world around M-E. I’m surrounded by perceptions that a small tablet suddenly change to fit the world around me. Yet when that pill suddenly doesn’t “work” or I forget to take it for whatever reason those around me become truly my eyes and ears . This picture and sound is totally distorted from the reality in front of M-E. Which makes me want to not believe anyone or anything at all! Trusting others above myself is so hard especially since mistrust is part of my illness I carry along my path of life.
FOOTNOTE- What a difficult and confusing world those with mental health issues walk.