I’m not sure I want to get better well at least not completely. Don’t get me wrong the depression makes even this place look dark but since I’ve been taking the medicine I noticed how great it is to be here. Here my responsibilities are nearly nil as wonderful meals and housekeeping is provided on a daily basis. This is the place I can spend countless hours talking about how “I feel” and know that someone is always listening. It’s not that I don’t have the drive to get completely better but currently, it’s in neutral as the world outside is dangerous/scary and this place is safe/secure. I wish it didn’t have a mental health condition but since I do maybe getting completely better is not worth the effort when I can live here instead?
FOOTNOTE- Is there a line between helping those in need and becoming the crutch for them not to get better?