Just a moment ago I felt as if I was on top of the world now I’m barely holding on. It appeared that G-D was in my corner giving me all the breaks one could ever expect but then a change in what I expected led my feet to a point I knew shouldn’t have stepped. If I only was a bit more patient this grip wouldn’t be so daunting. Now I understand that although I have free will I must give my will to a higher calling especially when it appears that authority has left the room. I could have had it all but instead temptation and fear led me to this path of just holding on.