I did something without thinking and the consequences shattered around me. For on Shabbos one is not supposed to “work” and kindle a “fire”. Yet I had interrupted my actions differently than the final judge as I screwed in a heat lamp with thoughts of coldness instead of the warmth of the day. Within minutes of such an action and as thoughts of the business cycle entered my head instead of Shabbos the bulb literally exploded around me. Bearing witness to such an action changed the path I was walking hopefully forever.
FOOTNOTE- Further note I took a jump in the lake to cleanse my soul of any distance from me and G-D for the previous actions I had taken.