Past Sleep

I’m past the moment of sleep where the action in my head won’t let my eye’s appear wide shut. For thoughts are racing past me as my heart pounds with the thoughts that won’t give me a moment of shut eye. The insane thing is I know deep inside that there is a higher power directing me it just seems at this moment the director has left my set and fear is in the next scene and in the one after.  What will happen next isn’t necessarily a worry of concern but can be one of exhilaration with the same result insomnia. Insomnia robs me of the energy that makes my worries stronger and stronger until finally the sleep wins out on a permanent basis 6 feet under.