They say what I’m “feeling” isn’t entirely in my picture can you imagine how that makes me feel? How can I even trust what they are saying if I can’t trust those powerful emotions that have brought me to this place in the 1st place? Yes, all the other symptoms insomnia, Low motivation, anhedonia, apathy, flat effect , emotional withdrawal appear in my book but the idea that what I feel may not be real is too hard for me to accept… for now. Yes, I’ve taken the medicines they’ve given me to get better but for now I feel they are only making me feel worse and it’s so hard. They say I have a somatic delusion but are they in my body to know what is really going on? I’m never felt so confused and alone wondering what is real and what my mind has truly made up.
FOOTNOTE- This was meant to show how difficult it must be for someone to seek help who is suffering from psychosis.