How did I end up here? It was just a drink among friends and now who knows what I’ve done? I wish now they would have thought I was a prude, gay or just boring instead of ending up like this. For the moment it felt right, well maybe not right but not totally wrong. For they made me feel so important, smart, pretty when I was feeling nothing before. They knew how turn me just so they could fit me in their plan and then discard me like a piece of trash. Now I just feel alone ashamed of what I’ve done as I lash out at those closest to me blaming everyone except myself. I wish I could take back the night but now it lingers even in the sun.
FOOTNOTE- This could be occurring more often then we believe in the sad, lonely Pandemic times we are going through.