It was for the cause that has put my life on permanent hold. They needed someone to do something “big” to grab the headlines and they raised my hand before I knew it. I believed in the cause with all my heart and soul but now that I’m behind bar’s I feel my soul is leaving as well. The cause was “right” ….right???? I mean if it was so right why did I have to do something so wrong to prove that? It would have been easier to be the sacrificial lamb then the one performing the sacrifice. I guess in the end I was built up to be the one until I became the one they forgot about.