I’m mad for we have known each other for over 20 years and have released information to each other that nobody else would dare hear yet you won’t tell me what is wrong? We discussed matters that would be passed top secret in the personal and some of the most absurd remarks every said yet you won’t tell me how I might help keep it going. Who knows I might have a doctor or know of a brand new treatment that could help. It’s stupid of all the things one want to keeps secret their health shouldn’t be one of them because it’s something others might be able to do something about. Maybe my prayers would be more direct if I actually knew what sickness I was praying you were cured from. I’ve already lost another friend who went in the same route and I don’t want to lose you without banging my head and hand a lot harder so stop getting me mad and tell me what is wrong. In the end you might be mad at me for pushing you down this route but at least the end will (G-D willing) be many periods to come.